if only

If only I had my chance again I would have….

Kissed you for that moment longer at the alter;
Held you closer in times that mattered;
Said that I loved you louder than ever before;
Forgotten the things that didn’t really matter.

Been more proud of who you are and what you meant to me;
Been thankful for all the good you brought into my life;
Said sorry when I really meant it;
Listened more and defended less.

Laughed more;
Cried more in your arms;
Been stronger and braver;
Learnt to enjoy the moment and acknowledge our special times together.

Been less cynical and critical;
Been more understanding and accepting;
But most of all, If I had my chance again I would, 
never have walked out of your life; our life.

It was such a cowardly thing to do. 

bgadke77 ♥

** Photo by Kristopher Roller on Unsplash