To the man in the hospital bed next to me;
We are strangers. Unaware of each others circumstance with the how and why either of us ended up in here.
I am sorry you are not well.
I am sorry that you are on your own tonight.
I am sorry that I pretended to be asleep when you tried talking to me. I had no energy and no willingness to communicate.
I am sorry that my negative thoughts concerning your weight started after I watched you devour a sandwich, some fruit and a slice of cake. As I rolled over I heard the rustling of a chip packet and then a chocolate bar wrapper. I haven’t been able to eat in two days.
I am sorry that none of the nurses walking by are answering any of your questions.
I am sorry that your mobile phone battery is down to 9%.
I am sorry I didn’t have enough strength to get up and pull over the privacy curtain.
I am sorry that I didn’t have enough courage to ask the busy nurses to do it for me.
In hindsight, I probably should have as then my selfish and negative thoughts would have never existed.
I truly hope you are better now.